Friday, August 6, 2010 @ 6:16 PM
.Can't stop.... loving you.
August 6, 2010
it has been what... 7 months and some days, almost 8 months since... since you held me like that...
~****~
the other night, I, I dunno, I guess I felt lonely with bea being with her boo, and charlene talking to her new boo, I guess I just felt.. really lonely.. so well, I turned on my Ipod and watched the video you sent me before, and I dont know.. the tears just started to stream in... at the very end I closed my eyes as you said "I love you sweetheart, I can't wait for that one day when we can be together" and it hit me quite badly, I felt you put your arms around me, and whisper it to me ear. It was really weird... it was... as if you were really there holding me like you use to, with you right behind me and your arms around, I swear to God you were right there... how bad.. how bad that stung because I didn't know what hurts more.. me knowing you arent really there doing that to me, or the fact that i know that last thing you said... will never happen....
sweetheart, I miss you terribly, almost 8 months have passed, I know you have a gf now, I know you can't love me the same way you did before...
im sorry... im sorry for everything sweetheart.. im sorry I ever forced you...im sorry I shoved it down your throat....I was desperate.. I wanted to keep you.. but I knew.. I knew I was running out of time... so I forced you....
I...Im sorry.....
I miss you terribly sweetheart....
it's not healthy for me to stay like this, but I can't stop loving you.... I never want to...
Mahal na mahal kita......
If only one day.....
Title: When we way (juicebox)
Artist: Aj Rafael
this song, even though sadly it is the truth... its the song that I think of right now,.. its where I am... its where I stand....
its so hard, to let go of the sands that was once in this bottle we both shared..
sam, sweetheart....
come back.... I can't continue living without you in my life......
she better be treating you right.... :_\
P.S. I still love you..