Saturday, February 13, 2010 @ 5:57 PM
-Survival.
they say that "what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger", so what then would happen to you when it does kill you?
so today i realized something...
before, i looked at life and i had one goal:
live life to its fullest, spend everyday like it is your last...
now everyday is more like a challenge...
from trying to live to the fullest, it came boiling down to trying to survive the day... everyday i wake up its a challenge, and every day i fall asleep a sigh..
"another day gone by, i dont know how i survived this one, but at least its over now.."
today.. i went to school that filled up half of my day, then drove bayan around so i didnt have to go home.. that was another 2 hour passing by, got home ate and slumped to watch some tv, wish i went to bible study with dad but i was sooo tired... havent slept much for two days.. finally came crashing down today, 4 hours of sleep whoop! and then i woke up.. found myself thinking" thank god this day is almost over"
another day...
how long will i be able to survive?
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had another session of heart constriction last night.. its been a while since i had it. as usual i am the rebel that takes soemthing once or twice, i give up the meds hahaa, but boy that does come and bite me in the ass...
meds again? if i can find it. lol
having such a hard time breathing..
time is clicking.
p.s. i still love you